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Tying up my Regrets into Lovely Bows [ Week 5, Tuesday Morning, 2 AM ]
[Being back is... well it was a strange feeling. The first thing she did was examine herself in the lab for any abnormalities-- but it seemed that she'd rid herself of them. But she was no safer than anyone else now for certain.
That left... what to do next. She had a lot of things she wanted to do. And promises to keep.
But first she had to clear one thing up. She wouldn't be able to properly do anything until she'd tried at least. So, similar to that first day he arrived, Connor will receive a message.]
Hey. I don't know if you'll even read this, coming from me. But-- you didn't hurt them, and I know you could have. So I thought maybe there was a chance. I've gotten this far trying so I'm not going to give up.
If you're willing, come to the Robotics Laboratory. It's open.
Or you could just listen to me ramble incessantly for hours without getting anywhere. I've been told I'm good at that.
That left... what to do next. She had a lot of things she wanted to do. And promises to keep.
But first she had to clear one thing up. She wouldn't be able to properly do anything until she'd tried at least. So, similar to that first day he arrived, Connor will receive a message.]
Hey. I don't know if you'll even read this, coming from me. But-- you didn't hurt them, and I know you could have. So I thought maybe there was a chance. I've gotten this far trying so I'm not going to give up.
If you're willing, come to the Robotics Laboratory. It's open.
Or you could just listen to me ramble incessantly for hours without getting anywhere. I've been told I'm good at that.
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[ he doesn’t say it in a mean way, but an honest one. ]
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I'm still getting a handle on it. But... I'm really glad it happened. Even though... every day is really hard... I got to meet you all... and... and something that's really, truly worth fighting for.
It hurts... so much... every time. But... the thing that keeps me coming back is... I still owe you all... so much. Not just for what you've done for me and showed me in... helping me find myself... but because... even if it was the dead part or me... I helped them start this. So I'm going to finish it for them.
[She is really and truly mad, to match every ounce that she's also relieved and grateful... it really is a lot at once and yet it feels. Like it's right.]
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[ but it does sound like he’s willing to believe, if cautious about the things she’s said in the past. He is well aware people can change. ]
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This time... some of the people might be different but-- I care about you all the same.
In truth... even back then... I didn't care about any of the shit they did. They told me I had to do it if I wanted to keep working here. And then what-- just go back home a failure. So I did it.
It's horrible to think about now... the fact that I was so untouched by anything. But it's the truth. Now I feel like I'm going to burst at the seems every day just watching everyone doing their best. In truth you all are the inspiration that keeps me fighting. That and... not wanting... to ever be like I was before.
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Alright. I believe that you.
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[She’s crying again but this time it’s not filled with only unhappy emotions.]
Once we’ve done what we need to against the school’s robots, I’m going to build my own body. I know my uncle probably meant to protect me from Oswald again but— I don’t want to have something that could hurt anyone like that inside me. And it’s not really fair to Megumi.
...besides. It would be nice to feel like myself again. Physically.
So... lots of work ahead.
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